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Samsally



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PostPosted: Sat Dec 01, 2012 4:00 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

Willem wrote:
i just had a breakdown at a party

i left, stormed out, started walking, didn't know where to. passed a hospital where i took a rock, past a canal, over a railway and past a gas station. finally stopped at a roundabout, think i was hoping to leave the city and find some open field, stare at the sky or something. stopped at that roundabout and headed back. was about 4km+ to that point. took some police tape and another rock at that hospital on the way back

nobody cares


I care. Wish there was more I could do than say as much, though.
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PostPosted: Sat Dec 01, 2012 4:03 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

You took a 'rock'? Srs man wtf are you into now? Lemme know you okay.
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PostPosted: Sat Dec 01, 2012 11:31 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

Monkey Mcdermott wrote:
Was there a trigger or was it just a big nebulous ball of social anxiety plus ambiguous frustration and anger?

I usually get the latter.

Couple of triggers, yes, but none that my friends will understand or even see - so that nebulous ball thing too.

Samsally wrote:
I care. Wish there was more I could do than say as much, though.

Wish I could do more too - thanks for caring though.

Mr Gary wrote:
You took a 'rock'? Srs man wtf are you into now? Lemme know you okay.

It was a nice rock. I dunno. Things were pretty confusing and I'm not even sure why I decided to walk a couple of kilometres without even knowing where I was going, where I was or what I was doing. Maybe I was looking to get into a fight, maybe, it was certainly that part of town. Maybe that was what the rock was for? I don't think so, it was just a nice rock so I took it.

At one point, I stopped to break down some more and looked to the side and saw a sign that said 'dr. so and so, psychologist, psychotherapist' and I was like 'ok yes i get it'
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PostPosted: Sun Dec 02, 2012 12:25 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

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Monkey Mcdermott wrote:
Was gonna put this in the feminism thread, but it really belongs here. Warning...will make you furious and then sick to your stomach and then want to cry.


okay. man.


fuck it.


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In its filing, the district didn't go into detail as to why it thinks Cunnane was at fault, only that "carelessness and negligence on said plaintiff's part proximately contributed to the happenings of the incident and to the injuries, loss and damages complained of."


The fuck?
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PostPosted: Sun Dec 02, 2012 12:46 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

Willem: We argue, we fight, but you, good sir, are a good person. Your morals are very high and if more people thought like you this world would surely be a better place. I've broke down myself a few times and know it's not a walk in the park. But I do think I was much more in denial about my mental state then you are about your own. I think you're too harsh on yourself. By being able to recognize that you may need help puts you in a much better position than someone who can't bring themselves to recognize that fact.

Also, if you do seek counseling, don't be afraid to shop around. When I went to counseling for depression the first guy was absolutely horrid. He was fake, unempathetic, and generally didn't really seem to give a shit about what was going on with me. Also he creeped me out on some weird subconscious level I never could quite pinpoint. The second guy I went to was completely different and helped me work through a whole bunch of shit, mostly involving how I looked at myself and my relationships with others.

Sorry if I'm coming off like an armchair psychologist. Also, i don't think the rock thing seems that weird.
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PostPosted: Sun Dec 02, 2012 9:29 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

woke from a dream-turning-nightmare where I was arguing with ghosts, one of which was fed up and gonna gut me with a sword, to find my blankets covering my mouth and nose. And I had that weird waking-up-your-limbs-dont-immediately-work thing.

I ought to learn lucid dreaming.
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PostPosted: Tue Dec 04, 2012 11:20 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

APPARENTLY SOMEONE HUNG THEMSELVES FOUR BLOCKS FROM MY APARTMENT.

I'm really not okay with this.
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PostPosted: Wed Dec 05, 2012 12:13 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

a friend of mine just told me to bootstrap myself out my maybe-depression

she means well, really, taking a pro-active approach at getting me out of my flat and all that, but saying things like 'oh, it's not as bad as you think', 'the reason why you say you wouldn't call your pre-depression life happy or satisfactory is because you actually were happy and because it was normal you just didn't notice' and 'i think you're wallowing in self pity and you shouldn't do that' isn't really a thing i need to hear like ever
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PostPosted: Wed Dec 05, 2012 8:50 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

RON PAUL YOUR WAY TO HAPPINESS
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PostPosted: Wed Dec 05, 2012 7:15 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

Samsally wrote:
APPARENTLY SOMEONE HUNG THEMSELVES FOUR BLOCKS FROM MY APARTMENT.

I'm really not okay with this.


Why?

What does it have to do with you?
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PostPosted: Wed Dec 05, 2012 7:18 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

Oneponytoruleall wrote:
Samsally wrote:
APPARENTLY SOMEONE HUNG THEMSELVES FOUR BLOCKS FROM MY APARTMENT.

I'm really not okay with this.


Why?

What does it have to do with you?


Even if you don't think that would bother you, it is pretty obtuse to not be able to have some understanding why proximity to a suicide might bother someone else.
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PostPosted: Wed Dec 05, 2012 9:48 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

Whoever it was hung themselves from some of the obstacles at our local skating park. I don't walk past the park itself often, but all the little skaters sort of infiltrate all of downtown, including my parking ramp. They are nice kids, never harass me, and even complimented my scarf once.

Was it one of them?

And even if it wasn't, it's fucking sad as hell.
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PostPosted: Wed Dec 05, 2012 11:01 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

I'm starting to think my GM is looking for a reason to fire me. He's been by the pub twice in 2 weeks...each time he's been there he's challenged me on the specs for the food he orders for lunch. The thing being I would have to be an absolute moron to do anything but build the food to exact specs for a general freaking manager. He also came back and turned the grill up while i was in the restroom because it was 'too cold' when I came back downstairs it was sitting at almost 475 degrees.


It's a little frustrating being micromanaged...in a kitchen you've worked in for 8 years, by a man who hasn't set foot in a kitchen to work in 15.
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PostPosted: Thu Dec 06, 2012 2:22 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

Dro wrote:


Even if you don't think that would bother you, it is pretty obtuse to not be able to have some understanding why proximity to a suicide might bother someone else.


Struggling people kill themselves every day. The world doesn't really care. In fact, good mental health care becoming more difficult to obtain despite all the supposed advances since the Dorothea Dix era. Researchers like solving medical mysteries, but that doesn't mean anyone wants to pay for high dollar drugs, therapy and housing for a bunch of deadbeat losers' long ass medical treatment. Hell, they even shut down the hospital named in Dorothea Dix's honor and not because its services were no longer needed.
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PostPosted: Thu Dec 06, 2012 4:11 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

I find it hard because their was a murder/suicide not a block from me and It's just "meh stupid traffic/cameras" As long as no one I know got wacked, who cares
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